back on it

Life :)

Amazing so far, couldn't ask for much more.

Just started my new job! Night shifts at a skilled nursing facility in Longmont, nights are certainly hard to get used to! Sleeping during the day, I feel like a bum! But the staff seems nice and the residents are wonderful! Finally I am back where I need to be. Taking care of people who need me, I need that I think.. To feel as if I am helping someone out. After work each day I feel rejuvenated, and better about myself. Making other people feel good makes me feel good :) Maybe I am doing something right! Any way I love it so far, Im going in early tonight so I can have 10 hours for this shift, and tomorrow I work a 16 hour shift. Grabbing the DANKSO'S out of the closet and preparing for a crazy three days of work work work!

Sotera has her middle school orientation tonight! My god time flies when your having fun. It feels like just yesterday my little sister was born, now she is almost in middle school! eekkkk. I keep on telling her that when she starts school it is going to fly, by the time she realizes how fast time has gone she will be walking across the stage at graduation! My beautiful sister is growing up quickly!

Finally moving on, getting over the way that I feel about my anger towards the past. Its like that song by Rascall Flats, "Im moving on". New fav song! Any way it basically talks about the way that you are moving on. Love the part that says "I've dealt with my ghosts and faced all my demons finally content with a past I regret, I've found you find peace in your moments of weakness. For once I'm at peace with myself." FAVORITE!!! Any way, my amazing boyfriend has made me feel this way, that anger has no place in my life, and that I should never EVER let anyone take advantage of me! Thanking GOD daily for the way he makes me feel every single time I hear his voice.

Life just seems to short to go to bed unhappy. Why should I waste my time,

A God like out look

Thinking back I guess I never really realized my truth faith. Lately I have been thinking about things, my religion, my beliefs, and the beliefs of others. Talking to a new friend about his religion really makes me think about the many religion types in the world. I want to travel and find out more about each one of them..

Monday:

 I got all of my laundry done! Cleaned my room, and felt as if I was very productive! A big change from the past few months! Ahh if only every day was this good... I feel better about myself lately. A weight has been lifted off my shoulders and I am absolutely thrilled. Life has so many wonderful opportunities, why should I let anything, or anyone hold me back... I just want to be happy with myself. My life, and the things that I do...  

Tuesday:

 I woke up early, fed Mister P.. I wish it was a little bit nicer out so that we could play in the yard like usual.. Darn! We played inside, and snuggled a little bit before I got into the shower and got ready for my day... Went to work at 2, cleaned, cleaned, cleaned. The desk was an outrage, and there was papers, and other things that certainly were of no use.. Wow two productive things in a row.... I am out doing myself.. WOW! On the other hand, my last day of work is on Saturday, and I couldn't be more thrilled.. I mean what worse than being in a place for 6 hours at a time where a bunch of two faced people talk bad about you. I am much better than that, and I certainly don't need any ones B.S. You know for someone acting like they are such a GODLY person they sure don't play out the role. 

Wednesday:

Almost half done with the day, I have a hair appointment in an hour.. Any ideas???

More later :)

xo

Weekend Bliss

Okay, I am totally new at this, but I figure I might as well give it a shot....

Friday morning I got up, fed peanut, went to the vet.. Just to find out he has an ear infection, and nose congestion. Also my vet thinks he may have seperation anxiety. How sad my poor puppy, I suppose he has gone through alot in the past 4 months, so it would make sense for him to be nervous when I leave... We got medication for his nose and ear. drove home and went right back to bed. I think I may be a little less motivated lately, and really dont know the reason why.. Finally woke back up at 11:20 to get ready for work at 2:00. When I arrived at work I just realized that I wanted to go back home. Sometimes I feel as if I mess good things up, but then I come to realize it was not me at all... Work has been frustrating lately. I got off at 8:00 pm drove home, watched a few shows on T.V. then crashed.

Saturday was so much fun, woke up got ready and drove down to Lafayette for Serena's party. An arbonne party, like make up, skin care, hair care, and multiple other things. It was nice to hear someone talk about the way the product works instead of me going to the store and trying to guess which product (out of 1,000) would work for me. I bought a few things and then decided to host a party at my house on the 9th of January.. (you may all come) Drove home and grabbed my scrapping things to head over to the Tilleys to work on my parents wedding album, I am making them their first wedding album for chirstmas. Thank god for Debbie and Nicole! With out them I would be so lost in the whole process.

Sunday morning I got up at 8 to get ready for church. The bishop was at service so that made the regularly lasting 1 hour service more like 2 hours. It was good though, I miss going to church and hearing sermons. It makes you think about what life means, and God's place in your life. The bishop was saying that you dont have to go to church every Sunday for God to accept you into heaven and that he does not judge people. Just to turn around and say that being Gay is not something God is okay with. Confusing! Why would he say that God does not judge you just to say that if you are not sterotypical he will hate you. It was upsetting, I am not against people who are gay, lesbian, or any other. Well we got blessed and headed out of the church to go to the Chilson center. It was sort of like a coffee hour, but everyone brought a desert, there was food there too, and wine....... I saw a lady I used to take care of and it just made me realize how much I miss taking care of people. I work at a dealership, answering phones. Dont get me wrong I am very thankful to have a job, but it is not in my "call of duty" I want to help people and take care of them. Not answer their calls and transfer them to the person who can really help.. We left the Chilson went home, and I took the longest nap of my life. Mister P is so good at cuddling with me when I take naps. I am so lucky to have such a good puppy dog :) I really want to get him signed up for a puppy class I think he would enjoy it..

Today (Monday) I really need to do some laundry and clean, I havent really cleaned since I moved back home.. I mean I tidy up but that gets to be not so great any more. I will head down to Longmont to apply for a C.N.A. job and come back home to do laundry, and clean my room/bathroom. Hopefully after the day is done I will feel much better about myself..

Tonight I plan on going to the gym, that will also make me feel better about myself, and the way that I look..

Hopefully your weekend was wonderful as well :)

-Hasta